My Doodles
You. Me. My Thoughts.Archive for April, 2009
Whisper of Patience
I keep hearing someone whisper to me that I should be patient. Sometimes, I just don’t heed wise advices and I keep on being stubborn, pretend that I heard nothing. Then I weep.
I am what they call the “one-of-the-boys” – someone who can ride on boys’ jokes and someone whom boys are not uncomfortable with. The irony of the thing is, because of that, I become the safe girl and boys won’t consider me as one of their choices.
Or maybe I am just exaggerating. Maybe some do but I really am just choosy. If there is someone who likes me and is liked back by yours truly, I’d end up hurting and wondering how I could solve this piece of puzzle about boys.
I have always been a sincere person but how come my heart has always been the object of the game?
Again, I hear the whisper of patience.
I must wait.
I just don’t want to be hurt anymore.
Questions
Is he speaking what is real or is he just pretending?
Is he gonna fulfill his promise or is just full of words?
Why doesn’t he show what he says he feels?
Is he just playing games?
Is he worth the wait?
Is he even worth the feeling?
Is this just plain stupidity and foolishness?
I’m a Magnet of Hurts
I’m a magnet of hurts. I guess I can say that. I tend to be a magnet of guys who just play with girls’ hearts. I wish this magnetic field isn’t that powerful though. And I wish the magnetism would have reverse polarity and instead magnet A guy that would cherish me and would not take me for granted.
I am a magnet of guys full of promises they can’t fulfill. At that instant they make me real happy and bursting with joy that I feel as though I am the most beautiful and lucky girl on this planet. But then, that happiness is temporary. One second I would be utterly blissful and the next second I would be like a pricked balloon. Oh boy. Is there something wrong with me?
I don’t mean to sound pitiful. I still believe there really is someone out there who would eventually take care of my heart. I guess, these things are just a series of tests for me to pass, hurts that I have to take, and events from which I could purge meaningful realizations from. It really is not easy finding the right prince. All of them remain as frogs.
I wonder when the day would come that the frog held on the palm of my hand will become a prince when kissed? I can’t wait for that day.
