Time to refresh goals. I want to be straight to the point. What are my new goals in life? I will be updating this list from time to time when I get to accomplish one or realize that one is not feasible.

Long-term/One-time:

• Get a fulltime job [this is my priority for now]
• Get my MCTS certification [shoot, shoot. I really need to study.]
• Lose weight (at least 5 lbs) [wow, it seems like i have this in my list forever! ^_^)
• Visit the shrine in Agusan [Immaculate Conception] and make a significant donation (Before I left for the states, I prayed for the approval of my visa in this shrine)
• College plan for my brother
• High School/College scholarship for the unfortunate [time to give back what I have been given]
• Learn at least 10 new dishes
• Get a driver’s license
• Finish our house

  Regulars:

• Exercise patience. [now this I need]
• Cook bread [with tito cornel's bread recipe]
• Blog at least once a week – I’m hitting this one for this week

I guess this is already a lot. To make each item in the list feasible, the whole list itself should be feasible.

Thinking about my certification, I’m thinking of making [again] a blogsite where I can post daily updates regarding the stuff I’m learning while I’m doing my reviews. I’m targeting to take the certification on the week of my birthday. I really should push myself to review now else I really will feel useless.

To succeed, I should make no excuses. I must keep my head up  but be humble along the way.

Now it’s all up to me. Ganbatte!

It really has been a long time since I’ve written a sensible post. The past few months have been a breeze. Ups and downs. Tears and smiles. Sighs and anticipations. Worries and excitements. I guess this summarizes the little hills I’ve trekked upon:

1. My contract with my team has been extended – prayers answered! Thank God. I was sooooo relieved. [My brain is now nagging me to type fast, have to go to the bank. Have been leaving off things for a while and Greg is nagging me to deposit my checks]

2. False alarm. I thought I was going to fall in love but was stopped in time. [Sigh] My heart got broken but in the process grew stronger. I don’t want to say anything anymore.

3. I think family-wise I have accomplished much. Full payment for my bro’s tuition [oh yeah, one full year - super ate! ^_^], full payment for my family’s whole year of internet usage, inspired my mom to pursue her masters in nursing, started house renovation, and straightened some things up. All in all I have learned to be patient and disciplined. And have grown up in a few months time. Now I am waiting for those white patches to grow. Oh no…

4. Started to love biking! Oh yeah, I fell in love – but with a thing. o_O

Plans, plans, plans …

• Go to canada and visit relatives
• Lose 10 pounds! [I can really really do this ^_^]
• Fulfill more plans for my family
• FT! [discipline, discipline, discipline]
• Increase biking and jog hours
• Avoid eating mucho! Haha. As if. To fulfill plan # 2.
• Inspire self more to inspire others more.
• Avoid breaking my heart. Or should I say, not allow other people to break my heart [sigh, sigh, sigh]
• Improve my relationship with the one responsible with all the blessings I currently have. I just have to. Kuya Jes, you are really loved.

Have to run! (o_o) Will continue this later. After my shift. Here kitty kitty…

I’m a magnet of hurts. I guess I can say that. I tend to be a magnet of guys who just play with girls’ hearts. I wish this magnetic field isn’t that powerful though. And I wish the magnetism would have reverse polarity and instead magnet A guy that would cherish me and would not take me for granted.

I am a magnet of guys full of promises they can’t fulfill. At that instant they make me real happy and bursting with joy that I feel as though I am the most beautiful and lucky girl on this planet. But then, that happiness is temporary. One second I would be utterly blissful and the next second I would be like a pricked balloon. Oh boy. Is there something wrong with me?

I don’t mean to sound pitiful. I still believe there really is someone out there who would eventually take care of my heart. I guess, these things are just a series of tests for me to pass, hurts that I have to take, and events from which I could purge meaningful realizations from. It really is not easy finding the right prince. All of them remain as frogs.

I wonder when the day would come that the frog held on the palm of my hand will become a prince when kissed? I can’t wait for that day.

Are they blind? ^_^ (Please see message at the bottom)

When I was just a kid, I dreamt of joining the Miss Universe pageant (I always played with barbie dolls, and I always attributed the skinny girls in the said pageant to these dolls and used to think they were what I wanted to be). I knew I had to grow up skinny and sexy. I was scared of the thought of being overweight and having excess fat in my stomach. Then I grew up.

When I was in high school, I really had no problems in losing weight. I was an active basketball player, and was always into some game (maybe also due to the environment in the dorm) – so metabolism was fast. I really wondered why some other people would have a hard time peeling those extra pounds off when there are just so many things to do! When I went home for summer, I loved swimming all day long – with my cousins’ company (even though I gobbled off packs of junk food and barrels of coke). I climbed a lot of trees (just a pasttime you know, I know what you’re thinking! =P), and despite all the activities, still managed to eat a lot. I felt I was so lucky despite the large amounts of food I consume – I still remain skinny. Then I graduated from high school.

The first time I felt myself beginning to grow fat, I welcomed the thought. I was the ever skinny girl since I was still a baby (premature baby, 2.5lbs and I embraced any amount of fat that could stick with me). I never knew I’d keep weight and gain weight. I did. Then I realized that I really took things for granted.

I’m a little overweight now (not really that much, maybe an excess of 5 pounds). I know that’s not so difficult to lose but for me it really is. I have been trying to lose it for months now and nothing has been effective. And I guess I’m still gaining weight. I’ve become acquainted with this voice telling me not to eat extras especially in parties and food trips. Sometimes I just can’t help it! I wish I could concoct a way in which I could coax and discipline myself into losing weight.

But despite all things, I’m happy. That’s really what matters most. And I’m alive.

Thank God.

So – ’bout the invitation below? Is this a joke? LOL. At least it made me laugh and I started my day with a smile.

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Subject:

Invitation From New Star Modelling Agency

Body:

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